Last night was the hardest night of my life...
My husband and I lost our 6 weeks old baby due to miscarriage. The doctor came in @8:20pm and pronounced that our baby has stopped growing and the placenta has shrunk.
I tried to control my emotion and to listen to doctor's explanations. The doctor tried to cheer me up and told me that I could produce another one next month.
Once the doctor left, I couldn't contain the horror and the pain of losing our baby and I burst in tears....
My husband held me in his arms and we both cried. We mourned for the baby...
"Mimi" is what my husband used to refer the baby.
We pray that Mimi would be in a better place with Jesus now. We trust that God knows what's best for Mimi and for us.
During this hard time, there is a song that God put in my heart. The title of the song is "Bring the Rain" by MercyMe
Here's how it goes:
I can count a million times
People asking me how I
Can praise You with all that I've gone through
The question just amazes me
Can circumstances possibly
Change who I forever am in You
Maybe since my life was changed
Long before these rainy days
It's never really ever crossed my mind
To turn my back on you, oh Lord
My only shelter from the storm
But instead I draw closer through these times
So I pray
Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know there'll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise You
Jesus, bring the rain
I am Yours regardless of
The dark clouds that may loom above
Because You are much greater than my pain
You who made a way for me
By suffering Your destiny
So tell me what's a little rain
So I pray
Holy, holy, holy
Is the Lord God Almighty
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I know in my mind that God is faithful and He knows what is best for our little Mimi and for us...
He is the Creator of heaven and earth...
He is the Almighty God...
He is my source of Hope...
For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. -- Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. -- Jeremiah 29:11
My heart is learning to catch up with my mind...
I pray that the process won't take too long...
